This beautiful card and message comes from The Mystical Shaman Oracle Deck and the timing couldn't be more perfect as we head into Winter Solstice and to the Direction of the North, where the bones of our ancestors lay.
The Ancient Ones are the shamans of old who defeated death and escaped from the tyranny of time. The Ancient Ones once walked the earth like us, in flesh and bone. Now they reside in infinity and can counsel us after we say yes to our calling. They are available to help us attain our full realization.
The Ancient Ones are inviting you to reach to the future to help birth a new destiny for the Earth. Go ahead; find out who you are becoming 10,000 years from now. If you accept the invitation, great power and blessings will come your way and allow you to craft a new destiny for yourself. Do not hesitate to bite off more than you can chew, because you have unlimited spiritual resources available right now.
The Ancient Ones beseech you to examine your attitudes and actions, and be sure that they are of the highest integrity. Not forgiving an ancestor (or yourself) is keeping you from the freedom you seek. Remember this is no longer your karma. You can break the chains that once bound you to the family drama and be free of your generational curses. Forgive the ones you need to release. Honor your biological ancestors by lighting a candle to them tonight.
Amen Aho and so it is.
I often get asked the question, “How did you become a healer? What was your journey like?”
As with most healers, it often begins with a quest of healing oneself.
My personal healing journey has been a long one! I’ve gone through many twists and turns in life. So much so, that I can probably say very few things surprise me anymore. Not so much in a jaded way, but from a place of having experienced many extremes in life.
Cynthia's Healing Journey
I knew there was a part of my life that always seemed to be just out reach. It was as if I was ignoring an essential part of my soul. I was always tired, angry, overwhelmed and stuck on that same road, over and over again.
I was disconnected from my heart, my body, my soul.
Even as a young child, I always had insomnia and anxiety. I was a worrier. I had ulcers at the age of 9. I was small for my age. I never seemed to “fit in”, I was always in trouble at the Catholic school for not following the “rules”. If I’d ever been diagnosed, I suspect it would have been ADHD.
By the middle of 2002, I found myself in a job I I wasn’t happy in. My work situation was toxic, my boss was toxic, but the money was excellent and the hours were great. But I was unhappy. I was abusing alcohol to numb my unhappiness. We were partying a lot. I wasn’t healthy body mind or spirit.
By the end of 2004, everything had escalated and I started getting down on life – I had just woke up from my second wrist surgery and thought what the hell is going on? I just kept getting these ganglions in the joint of my right wrist and they were so painful. So was the recovery process, time after time. Within 3 months of my last surgery, I had somehow conjured up another very large ganglion, right in the same spot and thought oh, god I don’t want to go through this again.
One beautiful summer day, I literally “FELL” into Reiki!!! Yes – I fell off our deck at our campsite, 4 feet straight down, tripped over the dog leash. I knocked the wind right out of myself. I hurt myself badly. At that moment, I lay on the ground crying…I was angry with myself. I was hurt. I was hungover. Again.
It was at that moment when life had kicked me so hard to the ground when the lady across the road from our campsite saw me and came over to help me up off the ground, as I couldn’t get up, I had hurt myself that badly.
In that instant when she reached down to help me up, I had no idea how much my life would be changed through her helping hand.
She told me that she did “Reiki” healing and offered to help me out with a session from my fall. At that time, I had no idea what she was talking about and actually thought she was just a little bit strange with her ideas and beliefs. Up until this time in my life I had never heard of alternative or energy healing – I simply had no idea.
I finally surrendered and allowed her to “do her thing”. When she was finished, I didn’t really know what she had done to me, but I did know that my pain was gone and I wanted to know more about how she did that and I felt amazing! I wanted to know more about how this “Reiki” worked.
Looking back at that time now, I know that it was one of the best things that ever happened to me because it invited me to take a closer look at what was going on in my life and the way I was living it.
I realized that it was my own anxiety, unhappiness at work and in general, my lack of self-care and disconnection from myself that was the cause of my ganglions, anxiety, sleep issues and depression.
I knew it was time to connect with my heart’s desire to reshape my life and live it the way I really wanted to. And that’s what I did. I spent a lot of time taking my next Reiki levels, studying, learning about myself and what I really wanted out of my life.
Through reiki, meditation, and finally, the big one ~ letting go of the notion that I had to stay at the job I was and not follow my passion, which was now energy healing. I put my notice in at work and within one week, my ganglion was completely gone! Wow!
For the first five years following my Reiki First Degree course in 2004, I was physically and emotionally in better health than I could ever remember being— I didn’t even catch a cold in that time— my anxiety and sleep issues were settling down as I treated myself regularly and practiced Reiki friends and family.
I also took my Second Degree course in 2004, and became a Reiki Master in 2005.
I started my business, Essential Energy Healing, but clients were just not coming as fast as I wanted them to, so I ended up taking another part time job to help with support of my business. Within two years of starting that job, I got chronic bronchitis and three serious bouts of pneumonia, then my father passed away from a horrible brain and lung cancer, which spread so fast it knocked our family right off our feet. Within 2 months of my dad passing away, I was sick again. I decided right then and there to do what I was called to do, which was to heal myself and helping others do the same so they wouldn’t have to go through the same stuff as I did.
Because like everyone else I am on my own healing journey, I would describe myself as a “work in progress.” I don’t think it would have been possible to support others and teach Reiki with any real authenticity if I hadn’t experienced some of the health problems I gone through, and therefore healing needs, that I have had over the years.
As has been the case for many healers, my need for help with my own health, and life in general, is what led me to Reiki in the first place. So when I came across Reiki and experienced how wonderful and relaxed it made me feel, it seemed like the answer to a prayer.
But….Throughout that time I continued to live as frantically as I had before I started practising Reiki.
By fall of 2009, even with the help of Reiki and regular meditation, I was burned out, had adrenal exhaustion and ended up taking extended sick leave due to illness.
This experience gave me the chance to reassess my life, But did I really listen to my body or change the way I lived? Not a bit of it. Instead of slowing down, which had been my intention, I found myself continuing teaching Reiki and keeping up with my healing business.
I obviously hadn’t let go of my ways, so after my father died in the summer of 2010, my body came to a halt.
I suddenly developed chronic sinus infections and generally just not feeling very well, and of course it was painful and exhausting. Despite this, I stubbornly tried to continue on with my workaholic ways and continued on with my Reiki business, pushing through regardless weather I really felt like it or not.
Not exactly the best advertisement for a “healer,” I’ll admit, but I hate letting people down, I didn’t know how to say no, so I did what I thought was best for those potential clients and students, rather than what I knew was best for me.
The message from my body got louder.
In June of 2013, I had sinus surgery in the hopes of clearing my sinus issues. In July 2013, I ended up in hospital with a near fatal kidney infection and for the next 2 months my health was so bad that I was in and out of the hospital several times, unable to look after myself because I was too exhausted, full of one infection after another. All the joints in my arms, hands, legs and feet were too painful for me to do anything. For months I couldn’t even get out of bed to shower and eat breakfast by myself, I had no energy at all. I was exhausted to the point of being bed ridden.
I was physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually exhausted. Anxiety and depressive states were creeping back. I was desperately searching what was wrong with me????
In October of 2013, after so many doctor appointments, I was diagnosed with Celiac Dis-ease and and three months later, Systemic Lupus. What the heck?
This experience certainly gave me the time to think again. At first all I could think of was to throw everything I knew at my illness to try to get rid of the symptoms— Reiki, affirmations, meditations, visualizations and just about anything else anyone suggested. I refused to accept that I was actually that sick. No way, not this girl.
But nothing happened. I didn’t get better. And that was the scariest thing. For the previous five or six years, whatever had happened to me—an occasional headache, trapping my finger in a door, spraining my ankle —all I had needed to do was to place my hands on myself and let the Reiki flow, and within minutes, or at the most hours, the pain and swelling had gone. Why wasn’t it working now?
This was one of the darkest times in my life. I became very depressed, and I asked myself this question many times , but eventually I had to acknowledge that I was seriously ill and accept that at least for the time being, my life would have to be different than it had been because I was unable to do most of the things I used to do.
The simple things like going for a walk, doing housework, working my business. None of it was possible. I was continually exhausted. More than exhausted
This is when I began my real healing journey at another level!
When teaching Reiki over the previous few years I had paid lip service to the idea of the underlying causes of ill health, so I knew the theories, but when it came to being ill myself I forgot all about it— or probably more honestly, I hadn’t wanted to consider it. Now I began to examine this idea, to seek an awareness of why I had become ill. By meditating on the issue and seeking guidance from my Higher Self, I began to realize that I had been abusing my body—and for that matter, my mind, emotional self and spirit— by pushing it beyond its limits of endurance. On both a physical, emotional and spiritual level, the many years of stress and not taking care of me and what I had subjected myself to had finally caught up with me, and I needed to radically alter my way of life— permanently.
There are many stages of healing. There are four stages in the self-healing process, and in my desperation I had found two of them—acknowledgment and acceptance.
The spiritual, emotional and most of the mental I had covered. The physical. Not in the least. I did an off again-on again yoga practise, occasionally went for a walk, but that was about it.
So I took action— the final stage in the self-healing process. I took some simple, practical steps, like changing to a healthier diet and eliminating some foods known to aggravate Lupus inflammation and cutting out ALL gluten and sugar in my diet. I changed my attitude to many things, found a team of healing professionals that could support me in a physical way.
All the effort I had put into resisting my illness had been wasted!
By May of 2014 I was feeling like a whole person once again— or at least, whole enough to get some walking and yoga in, meditation and self-healing with Reiki on a daily basis. I started to cook for myself once again which nourished my root chakra, and had some energy to actually do things I wanted.
I still had to sleep during the day 2-3 hours though, so I still had some things to figure out. I was still having issues with food intolerances and finally I ended up doing a full elimination diet, where I found numerous other foods were affecting my energy….eggs, peanuts, legumes…good lord, what is a girl to eat??? Whole foods. Healthy organic foods. Greens. Veggies by the plateful. Water. Lots and lots of hydration.
Although I thought that Reiki had finally got through the layers of resistance, and brought to the surface the understanding of the phrase “what you resist, persists.” I still had a long way to go in my healing journey
I didn’t realize then that all I had really needed to do was to “l Surrender and flow I- the final 2 stages of deep healing.
I didn’t know I needed to stop trying to live my “old” life, and stopped chafing at the bit and feeling resentful because I could no longer rush around “doing” things; instead I needed to get on with my “new” life— just being me. I don’t mean being me in one of the many roles I used to rush around playing— mother, daughter, teacher, business owner, healer, Reiki Master— because they were all masks. I was still putting others needs ahead of my own and felt overwhelmed because I felt I was falling short of who I used to be and was still my own wort inner critic rather than my own best friend. I still had the flawed thinking that I wasn’t enough…I never had the energy to do what I wanted, what I used to do, which was go go go all the time. I wasn’t getting out of bed until 8 or 9 am, when I used to be up at 5 daily.
Where did I learn that I didn’t need those masks? How did I learn to “let go and flow”? How did I really really learn to give up the roles other people wanted me to play, and concentrate on myself, without the guilt of thinking I was being selfish?
Enter my Warrior Goddess Training. One day while doing some research on food intolerances and healthy living, I came across a website called “Warrior Goddess” by HeatherAsh Amara,who had been trained through Don Miguel Ruiz – it caught my attention more so because she had trained through Don Miguel Ruiz who wrote the 4 Agreements, which I shared always in my Reiki Classes.
After doing more research in the Warrior Goddess Training, I discovered that it resonated deeply within my soul and I jumped in with both feet.
My life changed, once again through my WG Facilitator Training.
I learned to move through my resistance, I released my old baggage and my fears of being sick all the time, I reclaimed and strengthened my self respect, I discovered my Goddess energy and opened up to more joy, love and passion. I discovered my Warrior energy. I witnessed my old beliefs that no longer served me and took responsibility for my actions from a place of loving who I was. I was more truthful with myself and found that by sinking into the moments of silence, I opened the door to allowing the essence of my life force to chanel and I started to connect with women who honored and empowered themselves as the women they were meant to be.
I am eating healthy, still sleeping a lot, giving myself lots of Reiki, doing my sound healing with my beautiful crystal bowls and drum, meditating regularly, receiving guidance from my Higher Self, reading numerous books to learn more about myself, my favorite metaphysical subjects, nutrition, relaxing and generally enjoying my more peaceful lifestyle--
My health contines to improve: I am not yet 100 percent healthy, although I have periods when I’m almost there. I still have days that as soon as I open my eyes, I KNOW it’s going to have to be a quiet day, regardless what I have planned, or would like to do. I’ve learned if I push through, as I would have in the past, I would end up in bed for at least a week, at the least a couple of daytime naps.
As I said, I’m still on a healing journey.
But now my attitude is that that’s OK. There are still lessons to be learned, and sometimes I get a Lupus flare-up of , but it is always because there is something I’m not paying attention to, like not eating properly, getting enough sleep or because there are some deeper layers of negativity or blockage that need to be released. As soon as I seek an awareness and understanding of the problem, and take action to put it right, the symptoms die down and I’m fine again. As an analogy, it’s rather like a smoke alarm that goes off to keep you safe by warning you that there’s a fire; similarly, my body goes off (or flares up, always in my chest) to warn me that I’m going off track in some way. It’s my body’s personal safety feature .
Each of us has at least one such safety feature—one area of our body that “acts up” regularly, such as a tendency to frequent headaches, indigestion , throat infections, skin problems or a bad back.
If you take your own Reiki Goddess journey, one of the consequences of increased spiritual development is an increased ability to be aware of such messages from your body, and drawing more and more Reiki Goddess energy into yourself over a period of time will gradually enable you to heal not only the physical symptoms, but also the mental, emotional and spiritual causes of those symptoms.
My life now is totally different than it once was, Reiki & my Goddess Training has brought me all those things I have already suggested it could: wholeness and harmony, personal peace and a sense of purpose, emotional balance and feelings of joy, bliss and fulfillment. I cannot imagine life without it. I am finally at peace with who I am and where I am in my life.
Teaching Reiki & Facilitating my Warrior Goddess Workshops has brought me so much pleasure and satisfaction, and I just love having the chance to play a part in the way that it changes people.
I know that a major part of my life purpose is to continue teaching Reiki and The way of the Warrior Goddess, and I am excited about the future possibilities.
As I continue with my healing journey physically, I am grateful for the lessons I have learned along the way.
So much love to you, Cynthia )o(
From the Earth Magic Oracle Card deck, by Stephen D Farmer:
Wind ~ Activation
The various currents of air that circulate on our planet can be gentle enough to tickle the hairs on our arms or so fierce that they destroy man-made structures, as well as trees and other vegetation. Wind moves the air to circulate the atmosphere and keep it from becoming stagnant. When there is no movement, the atmosphere feels somehow heavier. Gentle breezes help cool the land and pollinate flowers, whereas more tempestuous winds can snap tree branches off and stir something deeply within us. More violent winds can create temporary chaos with their ferocity.
No matter the degree of intensity, wind will activate us. IN this image, the breath of the god of wind stirs the sea and rearranges the sky. As this occurs, the weather shifts. The effects, even in this small area, send ripples throughout, blending and dancing with the water and the sky. It activates the atmosphere and the world feels more alive when there is wind.
The lethargy you feel is the result of a lack of activation – in other world, something that stirs your senses. This could be anything from walking outdoors, feeling the breeze on your body, or inhaling the different aromas that Nature herself provides. Or is could be finding the pleasure in a warm bath that helps you release the tension and stress from your mind and body. Music may activate your hearing, which sparks the pleasure centers in your brain. Art may activate your emotional responses. The touch of another human may activate a deep need to be physically held in some manner once again.
Now is the time for action. Engage in some activity and be fully present so that you forget about your surroundings and enter into that timeless and multidimensional experience of union with the focus of your creative attention. Let you physical body be active. Movement alone – whether quietly dancing by yourself or hiking up that hill over yonder – will require you to be as present as possible in your body. Enjoy!”*
There is nothing more liberating than standing outside with your arms up, palms open, feeling the wind whipping through your hair. The wind has a cleansing effect, as it blows all the negative or low vibrational energies right out of your aura and away into the atmosphere to be dissolved. You feel free and alive as you breathe in the fresh air; particularly if you can be near the ocean, forest or mountains, where the air is the cleanest and full of oxygen, waking up your cells as you breathe it in. The wind is powerful and can help you to feel powerful too; like you can take on anything. It can give you a nudge in the right direction to let go of stagnancy and complacency and stir things up a little.
Again there is synchronicity in the themes lately; stepping out of your comfort zone, gaining perspective, seeking freedom and inspiration. All of these lead back to living your life’s purpose, finding your authenticity and centering with self love and acceptance. It is no coincidence that as I write this I look out my window to see the trees moving and swaying, the clouds flying by in the sky. It’s time for me to get out there and walk the dog. I will take some time to breathe; asking the Divine to cleanse my energy, fill me with strength and whisper guidance on the wind. I have ideas swirling around in my head that will come to fruition soon; I have to organize my action steps and take the leap of faith.
If it’s not windy where you are, don’t worry! It will be windy at the perfect time for you. You can still visualize harnessing the energy and power of the wind as you breathe in some fresh air. You can still raise your palms and your face to the sky and ask for, guidance, love, healing and support. Feel the love flow through you; fully present and consciously allowing and receiving. Your angels love you, the Divine loves you and they are with you, as always, every step of the way.
Reiki Master Teacher | Practitioner,, Goddess Facilitator, Moon Momma & Wellness Warrior, Lupus Thriver